Friday, April 29, 2011

Grief

I don't want to let another day pass without at least telling you all that, physically, I am okay.  The D&C went as expected and I am no longer pregnant.

I am no longer pregnant.

My baby is dead. Gone. Never going to be born. Never going to be loved and looked after and cared for and cherished.

I am in a pretty fucking dark place right now.  There is nothing to satisfy the emptiness I feel.

I just want my baby back.
Posted by Aub at 10:30 PM
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11 comments:

  1. KrisApril 29, 2011 at 11:08 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss ((HUGS)) I have never had a loss before but I would never wish it on anyone.

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  2. EmilyApril 29, 2011 at 11:58 PM

    Oh Aub, my heart breaks for you.

    I wish you great strength during this journey. You and your baby are so very loved.

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  3. LeighApril 30, 2011 at 9:49 AM

    I have no words that will comfort you, sweet girl. But I am so very sorry you are going through this pain.

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  4. SandyApril 30, 2011 at 5:01 PM

    Oh I'm so very sorry for your loss. I lost our first baby a year ago and I remember that dark place. I wish I had words to comfort you but all I can say is that I'm so truly sorry. My heart breaks for you because I know how painful this is. Sending hugs, love and prayers your way!

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  5. TApril 30, 2011 at 7:31 PM

    Hugs

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  6. meggolaApril 30, 2011 at 8:39 PM

    I remember that dark place as well. I know it's hard to believe, but it will get better. You probably don't even want to hear that right now. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Here's a site that I found helpful when I went through my miscarriage: www.facesofloss.com HTH.

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  7. LisaBMay 1, 2011 at 9:25 AM

    I am so so very sorry. I wish I knew something better to say. I am thinking of you and praying. HUGS

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  8. missohkayMay 1, 2011 at 1:18 PM

    I'm so sorry. That dark place is so familiar to me too. You'll always cherish your baby and wish that others felt the same, but you will come out of the dark place eventually. Hugs.

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  9. debMay 2, 2011 at 3:36 PM

    I'm so very sorry. I have been in that dark place... many times... But you'll find the way out, you will. Your sweet baby was loved and looked after and cared for and cherished from the momento you knew and he felt that too.
    Big Hug.

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  10. BluebellMay 2, 2011 at 8:24 PM

    Aub, I'm so incredibly sorry. Feel what you need to feel for yourself and for baby, and know that you're not alone. Sending you hugs and strength xx

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  11. LaurenMay 2, 2011 at 9:52 PM

    Oh my gosh, I am so sorry :(

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